Sunday, January 30, 2011
Friday, January 28, 2011
BEYOND IT ALL
Hubble Spots Oldest Galaxy Ever Seen
this is interesting, looking back through time and all. i appreciate the science and knowledgeable pursuit inherent in astronomy as much as any other autodidact but may i postulate that the date of the known universe's size and age is still unknown? consider our visible universe as a series of waves and troughs, ripples if you will, created by a big bang or something like a rock in a still body of water with the galaxies and matter on top of the waves and the troughs being relative voids of nothingness, empty space. if beyond the 13.7 billion year horizon/light barrier that we see from our vantage there are supposed troughs or desert like vastness' then perhaps there is another wave of matter/galaxies radiating out beyond our visibility. another ring of cosmic activity. and beyond that perhaps more waves and troughs of activity and inactivity. if there is a galaxy 50 billion light years away and we have only been around for 13.7 billion years that light wouldn't have reached us yet. the universe could be even larger than we have imagined. of course this is currently unprovable due to the constant (?) speed of light. i like to think of the universe as even more expansive than our present conceptions and that it always offers more. then again i'm pretty f69ked up right now and i'm only wearing my pj's.
this is interesting, looking back through time and all. i appreciate the science and knowledgeable pursuit inherent in astronomy as much as any other autodidact but may i postulate that the date of the known universe's size and age is still unknown? consider our visible universe as a series of waves and troughs, ripples if you will, created by a big bang or something like a rock in a still body of water with the galaxies and matter on top of the waves and the troughs being relative voids of nothingness, empty space. if beyond the 13.7 billion year horizon/light barrier that we see from our vantage there are supposed troughs or desert like vastness' then perhaps there is another wave of matter/galaxies radiating out beyond our visibility. another ring of cosmic activity. and beyond that perhaps more waves and troughs of activity and inactivity. if there is a galaxy 50 billion light years away and we have only been around for 13.7 billion years that light wouldn't have reached us yet. the universe could be even larger than we have imagined. of course this is currently unprovable due to the constant (?) speed of light. i like to think of the universe as even more expansive than our present conceptions and that it always offers more. then again i'm pretty f69ked up right now and i'm only wearing my pj's.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
The 2011 State of the Union Address
Barack Obama is awlsum. I will vote for him again. People use him as a scapegoat and I don't like it. If we all supported him we could get out of this mess and make the world a better place. Do not debate me, I will destroy you. I have a black-belt in Zumba.
Monday, January 24, 2011
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Saturday, January 22, 2011
PYRAMUTT
i made this on my iphone 3Gs using the free Collage app. yes, it's sloppy butt it's tiny, tiny in real life. that's Toto from the Wizard of Oz
. my cousin named this piece after i asked for suggestions on facebook.
. my cousin named this piece after i asked for suggestions on facebook.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Monday, January 17, 2011
TODAY WAS NOT THAT GREAT OF A DAY BUTT IT WASN'T THAT BAD
Today was not that great of a day butt it wasn't that bad. I got into a somewhat heated discussion with one of my best friends. I cried twice. I had an upset stomach and slept. Things are working out though. Everything is gonna be alright. Search Amazon.com for bob marley
Sunday, January 16, 2011
JUST CAUSE vs. JUST 'cause
Just Cause vs. Just 'cause
i want to punch assholes. that's why i carry hand sanitizer around with me.
GO [YOUR TEAM]!!!!!!!
when basketball players do a slam dunk they literally have the upper hand on their opponents.
defective whistles suck
Some link to a news story I found on some news website.
I just put "Totally." as my status update. Hopefully someone will like it and activate the time travel program back to the 80's.
The Wrath Of Corn
i want to punch assholes. that's why i carry hand sanitizer around with me.
GO [YOUR TEAM]!!!!!!!
when basketball players do a slam dunk they literally have the upper hand on their opponents.
defective whistles suck
Some link to a news story I found on some news website.
I just put "Totally." as my status update. Hopefully someone will like it and activate the time travel program back to the 80's.
The Wrath Of Corn
Friday, January 14, 2011
Thursday, January 13, 2011
HOPPY BIRD DAY TO ME
Today is my birthday. I could care less. It was super gnarlical that a lot of my friends posted on my facebook wall even though I don't keep my birthday visible and it doesn't send out notifications for it. I thought that was pleasant surprise. Other than that I worked all day. Today was the busiest day of the year so far too. I didn't have time to do everything that needed to be done and tomorrow's going to be a beeotch. I was going to go out to see my friend's band play butt I'm too tired. I like to spend my birthdays by myself anyway. I've never made a big deal out of birthdays. Besides I time travel all the time.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
ALMOST MY BERFDAY
It's almost my birthday and I got an early present. Amazon approved me for their associates program. I'm pretty excited. :D
Someone just iChatted me...
Nevermind. His wife keeps calling him.
So tomorrow's my birthday. Actually the guy that just tried to chat me has the same birthday. Ha! I bet that's why he's trying to get through. Another year has gone by where I've looked a little more failure-ish in the eyes of society. Or so they say. I've really been the same all along. Scratch what society says. I feel young as f69k and am ready for some new challenges and new cherished memories. I'm going to do art. F69k it. I need 2 do it for my own soul. That and doing the blogging thing are what I'm most excited about doing this year. All these years I feel like I've wasted. Maybe I have. I know I haven't butt I can't seem to explain it to people so I suppose I lost that argument. Any way, it's the right thing to do. I have things I want out of life that I've denied myself. Scratch that. Things I need. So far the year is looking great. I like having my birthday a couple weeks after New Years. It's less pressure for the resolution. I delay it a little bit for that reason. I quit facebook already. I had with withdrawals. I do miss my friends on their. I haven't balanced out the pros and cons yet butt I don't miss the people I don't miss, I'll say that. I feel good though. This co-worker of mine told me yesterday about how facebook killed his website. He said he made a page and everybody just went to their and his website tanked. I dunnnno yet. This year I'm going to rock. Or folk. Maybe polka and jazz. Music is a big part of my life. My friend who sings with a girls voice because she's a girl found a place where she wants to play. I've had a lot of female singer influences and unfortunately it's something I just can't replicate so I'll do that. I'd really like to get some drum action involved at some point so I can crank it up. Music is art though and I already said art. I have 22 minutes of this age left. This year has been filled with catch 22's. I have a feeling that's common. This next year I vow... is this thing on?... I vow to conquer the catch 22's in my life this year. They have been so annoying.
I have to post this and go. I have art to make. :D
Someone just iChatted me...
Nevermind. His wife keeps calling him.
So tomorrow's my birthday. Actually the guy that just tried to chat me has the same birthday. Ha! I bet that's why he's trying to get through. Another year has gone by where I've looked a little more failure-ish in the eyes of society. Or so they say. I've really been the same all along. Scratch what society says. I feel young as f69k and am ready for some new challenges and new cherished memories. I'm going to do art. F69k it. I need 2 do it for my own soul. That and doing the blogging thing are what I'm most excited about doing this year. All these years I feel like I've wasted. Maybe I have. I know I haven't butt I can't seem to explain it to people so I suppose I lost that argument. Any way, it's the right thing to do. I have things I want out of life that I've denied myself. Scratch that. Things I need. So far the year is looking great. I like having my birthday a couple weeks after New Years. It's less pressure for the resolution. I delay it a little bit for that reason. I quit facebook already. I had with withdrawals. I do miss my friends on their. I haven't balanced out the pros and cons yet butt I don't miss the people I don't miss, I'll say that. I feel good though. This co-worker of mine told me yesterday about how facebook killed his website. He said he made a page and everybody just went to their and his website tanked. I dunnnno yet. This year I'm going to rock. Or folk. Maybe polka and jazz. Music is a big part of my life. My friend who sings with a girls voice because she's a girl found a place where she wants to play. I've had a lot of female singer influences and unfortunately it's something I just can't replicate so I'll do that. I'd really like to get some drum action involved at some point so I can crank it up. Music is art though and I already said art. I have 22 minutes of this age left. This year has been filled with catch 22's. I have a feeling that's common. This next year I vow... is this thing on?... I vow to conquer the catch 22's in my life this year. They have been so annoying.
I have to post this and go. I have art to make. :D
Marking Time by Olivia Tremor Control
Thissss is my favourite song for the past few days despite the hissssss. It's ambitious and marks a time in it's own right by being created by one of the pioneering indie bands of the 90's, Olivia Tremor Control. Don't chew any food while you listen to this because the vocal harmonies are jaw dropping. I'm pretty sure the ghost of Paul McCartney played bass on this one. I high-ly recommend this if you like to get the headphones on. You can by it the entire MP3 album, 27 tracks, hear at Amazon for just $8.99
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8 DIVIDED IN HALF IS 3 IF YOU'RE SHARP
8 divided in half is 3 if you're sharp.
Shalom Course
Lunch Bend
Spear head a staff meeting.
Walk around, hear the sound with my volume knob turning it up and down, tuning into smiles, turned off by frowns.
the green sauce packets at taco bell aren't verde good.
square of applause
round of apple sauce
Build-A-Bob Thornton
jesus christ! cheezy crust!
i close my eyes when i invission things because i have mirrors inside my eyeball lids.
Do you know why eyeballs have lids? So the wind doesn't blow your eyeballs away. And racoons.
my words are paints tinted with punctuation marks.
Tired of being lazy.
Old tire salesman counting the days.
I'm going to live a week at a time. That might be one of my strongest ideas yet even though it's week.
lame joke. play on words.
work on words
Word Work
McWok
McStirFries
The Chinese can take over as long as they have good take out.
I still take Flintstones vitamins. That's how I keep my childish figure.
A child's favourite number is 12 because they always want to.
When the New NEW is just renewed we'll be nude like a newt.
Do people with fake eyeballs still realize things?
don't eat hot food or you'll burp the roof of your mouth.
If my shoes were to race each other they would have been tied.
Burning the Midnight Oil CD's...
Danger Mousse (for spikey hair)
Cajuns seldom think outside the bogs.
Shalom Course
Lunch Bend
Spear head a staff meeting.
Walk around, hear the sound with my volume knob turning it up and down, tuning into smiles, turned off by frowns.
the green sauce packets at taco bell aren't verde good.
square of applause
round of apple sauce
Build-A-Bob Thornton
jesus christ! cheezy crust!
i close my eyes when i invission things because i have mirrors inside my eyeball lids.
Do you know why eyeballs have lids? So the wind doesn't blow your eyeballs away. And racoons.
my words are paints tinted with punctuation marks.
Tired of being lazy.
Old tire salesman counting the days.
I'm going to live a week at a time. That might be one of my strongest ideas yet even though it's week.
lame joke. play on words.
work on words
Word Work
McWok
McStirFries
The Chinese can take over as long as they have good take out.
I still take Flintstones vitamins. That's how I keep my childish figure.
A child's favourite number is 12 because they always want to.
When the New NEW is just renewed we'll be nude like a newt.
Do people with fake eyeballs still realize things?
don't eat hot food or you'll burp the roof of your mouth.
If my shoes were to race each other they would have been tied.
Burning the Midnight Oil CD's...
Danger Mousse (for spikey hair)
Cajuns seldom think outside the bogs.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
1/11/11
It's snowing right now. I'd say it's about 4 inches right now in Delaware where I'm at. The treees look picturesk with the white mohawks resting on the branches. i think work will be closed tomorrow. that's fine by me. i'll use that time to post some sht. dangk today was a long one. *yawn* i'm going to listin to some musix. mgmt. i like that song siberian whatever it's called. it's a snowy sounding songstacle. it's too easy to type "snow" into the search bar of my muzic libarry. oooh! i just thought of something. i won't mention it though. ok. i'm feel wheel tired. best to rest in the warmth of the nest so i don't get the sniffles or a cough in my chest. explode sound. gimme sleigh bells and reverbs.... (goodnite}
Monday, January 10, 2011
A LOW HIGH
when we got high
we both knew why
we didn't want to say a thing
butt wee need say what kneed bee said
i'm soaked in pain
tease me to the bucket
you think you're supposed to dump on my head
i'll get by
you'll get by
we'll both survive the winter
make a garden or two
as long as they harvest
we can sing that tune
we are islands with chains
we both knew why
we didn't want to say a thing
butt wee need say what kneed bee said
i'm soaked in pain
tease me to the bucket
you think you're supposed to dump on my head
i'll get by
you'll get by
we'll both survive the winter
make a garden or two
as long as they harvest
we can sing that tune
we are islands with chains
1 10 11
i will conker u weekend
turn the dials on my dash
expect no perfection
like on the back of the cash
twinkle like a diamond
shadow to the truth
blanket covered 22's
uncovered nothing new
always with tentacles
opened wide for you
bring your warty baggage
grab a sandwitch for me too
uncle uncle uncle
get up off the floor
uncle uncle uncle
get up off the floor
turn the dials on my dash
expect no perfection
like on the back of the cash
twinkle like a diamond
shadow to the truth
blanket covered 22's
uncovered nothing new
always with tentacles
opened wide for you
bring your warty baggage
grab a sandwitch for me too
uncle uncle uncle
get up off the floor
uncle uncle uncle
get up off the floor
Sunday, January 9, 2011
NEW APPROACHES ON A MOVING TARGET
I'm coming up with a plan for blogging.
I think I need to have one site (this one TiggerOaks.blogspot.com) specifically for things I make.
I will also post links to sites where these things can be bought on that page.
I think I also need to create other blogs for each of my individual interests/passions/specialities.
Not too many of them at first.
Keep the names generic.
Music. Shopping. Movies. Skateboarding. News. Gadgets. Legos. Etc.
These will be the main blogs that I come back to the most.
Later I will develop specific blogs for individual targeted audiences.
These may be one offs and preferably have the name of the product in the URL.
All of these blogs could/should be linked to my main page and YouTube.
Hopefully YouTube will be able to designate witch blogs to share to.
Perhaps I will be pasting a bunch of code.
Look into using a blogger Profile page.
There was something in there about having up to ten Pages.
Maybe they are trying to be like facebook.
More work.
More fun.
Build A Dream.
I think I need to have one site (this one TiggerOaks.blogspot.com) specifically for things I make.
I will also post links to sites where these things can be bought on that page.
I think I also need to create other blogs for each of my individual interests/passions/specialities.
Not too many of them at first.
Keep the names generic.
Music. Shopping. Movies. Skateboarding. News. Gadgets. Legos. Etc.
These will be the main blogs that I come back to the most.
Later I will develop specific blogs for individual targeted audiences.
These may be one offs and preferably have the name of the product in the URL.
All of these blogs could/should be linked to my main page and YouTube.
Hopefully YouTube will be able to designate witch blogs to share to.
Perhaps I will be pasting a bunch of code.
Look into using a blogger Profile page.
There was something in there about having up to ten Pages.
Maybe they are trying to be like facebook.
More work.
More fun.
Build A Dream.
Louis Armstrong - A Kiss To Build A Dream On
Relationships between witches and warlocks are difficult to say the least. She is gifted with great talent. Right now I'm mad at her so meh.
Louis Armstrong
knew magic.
PINK SATURDAY
"Lemme get a German sausage."
"Sausage not done."
"Well then lemme get two corn dogs."
"Corn dog not done."
"Well, what the hell is done?"
"Keebasa, hot dog... Everything."
"Lemme get a kielbasa."
[the accents should be obvious]
"Fuck talkin' about it, let's get the band together!"
I'm going to make a spaceship for my cat.
I have been shaving my head for a few years but I've been letting what's left of it grow out in the past couple of weeks. I have grey hair. Sigh.
Apparently I play things close to the vest. I'm not sure how I feel about hearing that but it's good to know.
ejaculightning/thunderclam
music in the headphones, transported, uplifted
piercing the dark
fluffing the day with clouds
let there be florescence (flower essence)
I like people watching still, just not as much as I used to. Sometimes I like to go to the stores on these heavy shopping days and just walk around. I like the electric excitement in the aisles and the near collisions of carts. All that green and red. And those songs, those songs, those songs. I better visit Santa soon before he starts getting all stressed out. I'm going to bake him a fruitcake just to fuck with him.
Reality Particles
MOTHER MARS
I found you alive in a deep pit of fire
I struggled to free you from the shackles that kept you bound
But you wouldn't hold still
You wouldn't hold still
My tears boiled
My tears boiled
The sight of my true love burning in flames is unbearable to watch
So I try to shield your child's eyes from the horrific vision
COLOURED COATING
when the sky drops down
and black is blue
i will be there for you
i will be there for you
we drank some red
and the green came through
but then were were you?
but then were were you?
eye yellow loud
up indigo clouds
orange you happier
when violet is grey?
there's no bowing to your reign today
Best Coast | Sun Was High (So Was I)
This is from one of my favourite artists of 2010. The video for this song makes me cry and think of love. True story.
Weird Liberal Head Show #248: John Boehner- Weeper of the House!
I love this guy. Don't tread on me! Follow him on YouTube.
Save the last dance for me - The Drifters
A girl I really like likes this song. Me too. It means something between us. Something ordinary words just can't say.
'The Real Deal' | Breeders Documentary | Pt. 1
God, I love Kim Deal. Zillions of people do. That's a voice to behold. Right up there with Ted Williams'. The Pixies were a big influence on me when I was first learning guitar butt I'd have to say that the first few Breeders releases are still to this day some of the best songs ever played on my ear drums.
Best Scenes from "Vampire's Kiss"
Nicolas Cage is my dad's favourite actor. I don't really understand why butt every time he gets mentioned or is on the screen I try to look at him in a positive light if only to figure out my father. This clip though.... What can you say about this? I haven't seen the movie. I kind of want to even though I think vampires suck.
MY BLOODY VALENTINE
This is an awesome song from an unbelievably incredible EP that is no longer in print. Perfect for driving around in the snow to.
lil' J tellin you motha fuckas off!
Classic Awesome. The power of YouTube. Someday soon YouTube will be the biggest social networking site. People just have to get over being afraid of making asses out of themselves.
THE KEY WORD
The key word of the day. Today's key word is 2011. As long as you have your finger on the pulse of society you will always know the key words. If you always know the keywords you'll always get lots of hits on the internet. There are a few ways of finding out what that word is using analytic tools butt I will always use the Force.
WONDER MAN
Up on the quasar, down on the spiral, flipping frog fingers through the dust of an infinite times. We saddled up once more, eager for breakfast. When the moon shows it's hand it gets cut off. Old man out. Stumbling round the cubicles into the fires of icy dilemma an onward towards a warm coolness in your arms. Maybe we could sell the wood, chip in the teeth like a mother. Don't you say should. Could could curl clouds correctly. We want a garden, don't we? I'm at the corner of Nothing To Lose and Everything To Gain But Might Lose Anyway, waiting on a decision I could be making. Time to fly away butt witch awaits? One way I have to fly faster and get ahead of the coast. Thank you, Lord for the fast track. My first word I made up was "gription". You know what it means and you need it on your shoes. It's 2011. Am I right people? Let's have a big round of apple sauce!
DISCIPRIN
Finding time to dedicate to this blog is going to be a bitch. I'm going to miss out on some fun. At least in the short term. Butt this is for something bigger than that. And at least it's fun in it's own right. It's only a couple clicks away from what everybody else is doing on facebook anyway. Thing is I already work another full time job, I'm courting the most amazing woman and I'm saving the world from the clutches of evil everyday. When I get home I feel like zoning out so this is going to take a little bit of effort and good use of time. In a way it's just what I need personally. I have to set goals and achieve them. I have to fight the laziness. I know I'm not the only one. In fact millions of Americans suffer from chronic laziness. I just can't let that happen to me. Besides, I have no excuse. Everything is so simple these days. It's just clicks. Here's something that's ironic. You have to work with a computer butt play is only a couple clicks away as well. The temptation is right there. It takes a lot of discipline. I guess that's the primary lesson I'm learning as I'm typing out my drippy dribble. Discipline. Now I want to be a samurai.
RED AND BLUE ROBOTS
I made some robots using a sharpie on white paper then using the Adobe PS Express and SketchBook X apps on the iPhone. In total it probably took at most 30 minutes to do both of them from beginning to uploading to Twitters. Obviously they're Democratic and Republican. That's how it's done, create the enemies. Not that I agree with it. When I say that's how it's done I mean that's how it's been done for a while. There's a butter way if you can believe it. I can barely believe there's such thing as margarine. Butter your robots. Butter Bot. Bot Butter. Etc.... It doesn't get any shinier after that.
'Golden Voice' homeless man finds job, home after viral video success
This is inspiring, no? I am glad that this video is being circulated round round the interwebs. The way American society, shoot, for that matter most societies view homelessness and poverty makes me sick. To look down on another human being while at the same time saying you wouldn't either through your religion or politics is the ultimate in hypocrisy. At least in my eyes. Everybody deserves dignity and respect, no matter what the circumstances. That may be high falootin' butt it's true.
Epic Eggroll - Epic Meal Time
Also popular today is the Epic Eggroll video brought to you by epicmeattime. This is gross and funny. That's how we get 'er dum in America. I do like Chinese food butt f98k it, I'd bee sitting on the Emperor's throne all the next day if I ate that thing. This guy does do some nice narration if I might say. I would love to hear this guy's voice and Ted Williams, the homeless man with the golden voice together. I bet they could put rabid babies to sleep.
MICRO BLOG GARDENING AT NIGHT
So. Time. How to make use of thee when it comes to blogging? Well, I used to tweet a lot. I think it's fun and I use it as my free shrink so that my soul may grow larger. I don't do it as much no thanks to facebook. It's the same f65king thing! But better! I think I'd do about a dozen tweets for every facebook status update. If I'm drinking at night it's waaaaay more than that. So I was thunking...
They say tweeting is "micro-blogging". Ok. I guess so. Assuming that's true, does that mean if I had a whole bunch of micro-blogs put together that would be a blog? I'm going to assume yes on that one two. So maybe I'll get rid of the tweets app on here and at the end of the day of tweeting stupid shit I can copy and paste it into here and have a blog. More bloggy. We'll try that out for a while. I have a feeling that's it.
They say tweeting is "micro-blogging". Ok. I guess so. Assuming that's true, does that mean if I had a whole bunch of micro-blogs put together that would be a blog? I'm going to assume yes on that one two. So maybe I'll get rid of the tweets app on here and at the end of the day of tweeting stupid shit I can copy and paste it into here and have a blog. More bloggy. We'll try that out for a while. I have a feeling that's it.
Olivia Tremor Control - Fireplace
Olivia Tremor Control is sick. The whole Elephant 6 collective is an incredible sikodellic listening experience. When I think back to my wildest joys of record collecting I look back finding 7"s by the these guys.
the apples in stereo - shine (in your mind)
Take a bite of the lush, magistral sounds of these psy-popsters. Let the juice dribble down your chin.
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Saturday, January 1, 2011
TURN IT UP TO 2011
Happy Nude Year! It's 1-1-11 !!!!
This year is going to be different. I'm sure a lot of people are saying that today butt this IS different. There's something about 11. Can you feel it too? Change may be showing up late butt it's still showing up to the party. Fashionably late I suppose. Change change change. It's the only constant in the universe witch is an ironic thing what with the constant-ness and all. That's the thing about life, we live in an ironic universe with the circumstances being as such. That would explain a lot of things wouldn't it? Butt it's a layered onion type of thing as well. And with each layer comes another layer of irony. I always try to remember that if I think I have it all figured out it's probably the exact opposite of what I'm thinking.
I'm laying off the Facebook. I bet Mark Zuckerborg hates New Years Resolutions. I plan on keeping my account active and keeping it as my contact info for friends and family. I'm basically treating it like Linked-In. I'll still probably log in everyday and say "happy birthday" to my peeps butt that's about the extent of it. I could use it to keep up with people and make plans for events butt really, most of those people are from my past and I'm done living in the past. That's so 2010.
I'm quitting smoking cigarettes. It's the worst thing in my life. This girl I like doesn't smoke and she's got a kid. I don't want to lose them. If I can't quit for my own good, and believe me, I've tried, then perhaps I can quit for someone else. It suits my personality better that way anyway. Plus that shit is expensive. I never used to like smoking. I started late. I would always bitch to my friends and parents about smoking and was basically a goody-two-shoes for a lot longer than most of my peers. Butt then I did start. I think I started so that I could at least put the control in my hands. I was sick of breathing second hand smoke. It felt like I was smoking already. When people are forced to experience something that they don't choose to, especially at an early age, they tend to find ways to get some sort of control over it. Like prostitutes. Most of those women were sexually abused as children. Sad fact butt even sadder that it gets perpetuated by the victims themselves. Anyway, I guess I had my lungs raped by second hand smoke and decided to take measures into my own claws. Stupid stupid stupid. Like I said, it's an ironic world.
I need to grow up-ish. I've denied myself the pleasures in life like some sort of literal Jedi code that I've applied to myself. Things that most people have and take for granted. Things that put them perilously close to financial ruin butt that's another discussion for another time. Some of these things I consider to me "wants" instead of "needs", something I must have taken very seriously at some point in my development. And it's not like I feel a need to achieve these basic needs for myself either. I want to provide. I want to have a family. These are things I never aspired to yet the majority of the world has. I gave up on them to be honest. I never should have though. These are the important things in life. I do value them. I want them for everybody. I won't flush the achievements of all our ancestors down the drain in pursuit of some idealistic Utopian vision because in reality I may be on to something butt there is a better vision, a better idealism. It's a matter of valiance and priorities. A major priority in my life right now is helping support my new friend and her daughter. Yes it's love. Thing is, I can barely support myself yet I keep giving and giving everything I have away to people that appear to me to be in worse of situations. Or maybe they have puppy-dog eyes. Thing is, I want to support a family. I've had a change of heart and mind. Butt it's like when you're on a plane and they explain the procedures for emergencies and they get to the oxygen mask part and they explain that the adults should put their masks on first so that they can help the children put theirs on without blacking out mid process. It sounds counter-intuitive butt that's the reality of the situation. You can't help someone unless you help yourself first. That's a cold, hard reality. So if I want to, or you want to, help someone else you have to make sure you are capable. Don't leave someone hanging on a false hope. Who likes to be disappointed, right? So I gotta hunker down and come up with some creative ways of creating income. This shouldn't be a problem. I feel so stupid for taking the lowest paying, laziest job I could find. I just thought society was going the wrong way. I WAS right about that butt I was wrong about putting myself in a position of looking like a victim of society. It's twisted. It's ironic. I know. It's over, I'm done with it. I've changed and I'm moving on. Society was moving in a direction that did better itself, just not the most practical way. I see God's hand behind it all. He gave houses to people that couldn't afford them because He wanted them to have houses. And he needed some bait for the evil people to test their faith. I'm going on a diatribe here so I just say I need to make more money so I can support a family, not so I can bling and be a self centered snob.
I'm also cutting back on the weed. Marijuana. I was way late on smoking pot. All my friends were doing it and I was that guy that didn't smoke or drink or do anything. Yet somehow I was the "crazy" one. Look, the whole "medical marijuana" argument is fine. In fact I spent a few prime years of my life condoning a reexamination of our legal and ethical stances on the topic in regards to medical application. However, I think the main reason for legalization of the substance would have to be that it can bring you closer to God. At least that's how it is for me. There is a spiritual element to it that no one ever seems to talk about in public. Talk about it! Marijuana brings you closer to God! There are ramifications that I will concede too as well that are talked about either such as accidents. Lots of accidents. I won't go into that right now butt yeah. Here's another thing that is most important about marijuana. So many people want this plant legal for a variety of reasons butt I will say that if there is an evil person or persons on this planet that have big, Hollywood inspired agendas, well, then they want it legalized too. They would use it as bait, a lure for your votes. Think about it. That's why it has the taboo of being the gateway drug or the Devil's lettuce or whatever. It's because when sh*t's about to hit the fan the Devil say's "I'll legalize weed." I'd just keep that in mind if I were voting on it's legalization in the near future.
I'm going to be healthier. This is another big one. And for the most part I am healthy. Except for the smoking on top of asthma (stupid) I'm doing alright. I don't eat much meat, I eat my vegetables. I go for walks. I'm not overweight. As a matter of fact I'm a few pounds under weight. Something I don't like having people point out to me. I don't point out that they are overweight to them. I do feel inspired to bee even healthier though because last week I ate nothing but fruit one day and felt like a zillion bucks. I hadn't had that much energy in a long, long time. I felt like a teenager.
What else is different about this year? I guess that's up to everybody else.
Photoshop. I need to bust some Photoshop. I am soooo behind on developing my skills at this thing yet somehow I know that this is where I'm going to do well. Really it's just a bunch of buttons. There's always Undo. I occasionally do some collages butt that's sort of hard in it's own right. You have to match not only colours and themes butt sizes as well. Photoshop kind of solves a lot of those problems. When people talk about creating jobs and being green and all that modern jazz I always come back to creating things on line. Like art. I think if we as a culture put more value on art there would be a lot more jobs. Even apps. Distribution is super green, all you have to do is upload. You're not chopping down trees or anything. The internet is great and green for distribution. Think of all that paper being saved and all of that oil not having to be burned. I figure you can do one piece of art and use that same file to put it on a T-shirt or a coffee mug or a poster or something. It's several things in one if you do it right. That's a revenue stream. And the more I make the more I make. There's no reason why a kid in Africa can't learn the same skills as an American and pull himself out of squaller thanks to the internet. We are on course for a new, unified world. These tools are for everybody. I'd be a dum ass if I didn't learn to use them.
This year is going to be different. I'm sure a lot of people are saying that today butt this IS different. There's something about 11. Can you feel it too? Change may be showing up late butt it's still showing up to the party. Fashionably late I suppose. Change change change. It's the only constant in the universe witch is an ironic thing what with the constant-ness and all. That's the thing about life, we live in an ironic universe with the circumstances being as such. That would explain a lot of things wouldn't it? Butt it's a layered onion type of thing as well. And with each layer comes another layer of irony. I always try to remember that if I think I have it all figured out it's probably the exact opposite of what I'm thinking.
I'm laying off the Facebook. I bet Mark Zuckerborg hates New Years Resolutions. I plan on keeping my account active and keeping it as my contact info for friends and family. I'm basically treating it like Linked-In. I'll still probably log in everyday and say "happy birthday" to my peeps butt that's about the extent of it. I could use it to keep up with people and make plans for events butt really, most of those people are from my past and I'm done living in the past. That's so 2010.
I'm quitting smoking cigarettes. It's the worst thing in my life. This girl I like doesn't smoke and she's got a kid. I don't want to lose them. If I can't quit for my own good, and believe me, I've tried, then perhaps I can quit for someone else. It suits my personality better that way anyway. Plus that shit is expensive. I never used to like smoking. I started late. I would always bitch to my friends and parents about smoking and was basically a goody-two-shoes for a lot longer than most of my peers. Butt then I did start. I think I started so that I could at least put the control in my hands. I was sick of breathing second hand smoke. It felt like I was smoking already. When people are forced to experience something that they don't choose to, especially at an early age, they tend to find ways to get some sort of control over it. Like prostitutes. Most of those women were sexually abused as children. Sad fact butt even sadder that it gets perpetuated by the victims themselves. Anyway, I guess I had my lungs raped by second hand smoke and decided to take measures into my own claws. Stupid stupid stupid. Like I said, it's an ironic world.
I need to grow up-ish. I've denied myself the pleasures in life like some sort of literal Jedi code that I've applied to myself. Things that most people have and take for granted. Things that put them perilously close to financial ruin butt that's another discussion for another time. Some of these things I consider to me "wants" instead of "needs", something I must have taken very seriously at some point in my development. And it's not like I feel a need to achieve these basic needs for myself either. I want to provide. I want to have a family. These are things I never aspired to yet the majority of the world has. I gave up on them to be honest. I never should have though. These are the important things in life. I do value them. I want them for everybody. I won't flush the achievements of all our ancestors down the drain in pursuit of some idealistic Utopian vision because in reality I may be on to something butt there is a better vision, a better idealism. It's a matter of valiance and priorities. A major priority in my life right now is helping support my new friend and her daughter. Yes it's love. Thing is, I can barely support myself yet I keep giving and giving everything I have away to people that appear to me to be in worse of situations. Or maybe they have puppy-dog eyes. Thing is, I want to support a family. I've had a change of heart and mind. Butt it's like when you're on a plane and they explain the procedures for emergencies and they get to the oxygen mask part and they explain that the adults should put their masks on first so that they can help the children put theirs on without blacking out mid process. It sounds counter-intuitive butt that's the reality of the situation. You can't help someone unless you help yourself first. That's a cold, hard reality. So if I want to, or you want to, help someone else you have to make sure you are capable. Don't leave someone hanging on a false hope. Who likes to be disappointed, right? So I gotta hunker down and come up with some creative ways of creating income. This shouldn't be a problem. I feel so stupid for taking the lowest paying, laziest job I could find. I just thought society was going the wrong way. I WAS right about that butt I was wrong about putting myself in a position of looking like a victim of society. It's twisted. It's ironic. I know. It's over, I'm done with it. I've changed and I'm moving on. Society was moving in a direction that did better itself, just not the most practical way. I see God's hand behind it all. He gave houses to people that couldn't afford them because He wanted them to have houses. And he needed some bait for the evil people to test their faith. I'm going on a diatribe here so I just say I need to make more money so I can support a family, not so I can bling and be a self centered snob.
I'm also cutting back on the weed. Marijuana. I was way late on smoking pot. All my friends were doing it and I was that guy that didn't smoke or drink or do anything. Yet somehow I was the "crazy" one. Look, the whole "medical marijuana" argument is fine. In fact I spent a few prime years of my life condoning a reexamination of our legal and ethical stances on the topic in regards to medical application. However, I think the main reason for legalization of the substance would have to be that it can bring you closer to God. At least that's how it is for me. There is a spiritual element to it that no one ever seems to talk about in public. Talk about it! Marijuana brings you closer to God! There are ramifications that I will concede too as well that are talked about either such as accidents. Lots of accidents. I won't go into that right now butt yeah. Here's another thing that is most important about marijuana. So many people want this plant legal for a variety of reasons butt I will say that if there is an evil person or persons on this planet that have big, Hollywood inspired agendas, well, then they want it legalized too. They would use it as bait, a lure for your votes. Think about it. That's why it has the taboo of being the gateway drug or the Devil's lettuce or whatever. It's because when sh*t's about to hit the fan the Devil say's "I'll legalize weed." I'd just keep that in mind if I were voting on it's legalization in the near future.
I'm going to be healthier. This is another big one. And for the most part I am healthy. Except for the smoking on top of asthma (stupid) I'm doing alright. I don't eat much meat, I eat my vegetables. I go for walks. I'm not overweight. As a matter of fact I'm a few pounds under weight. Something I don't like having people point out to me. I don't point out that they are overweight to them. I do feel inspired to bee even healthier though because last week I ate nothing but fruit one day and felt like a zillion bucks. I hadn't had that much energy in a long, long time. I felt like a teenager.
What else is different about this year? I guess that's up to everybody else.
Photoshop. I need to bust some Photoshop. I am soooo behind on developing my skills at this thing yet somehow I know that this is where I'm going to do well. Really it's just a bunch of buttons. There's always Undo. I occasionally do some collages butt that's sort of hard in it's own right. You have to match not only colours and themes butt sizes as well. Photoshop kind of solves a lot of those problems. When people talk about creating jobs and being green and all that modern jazz I always come back to creating things on line. Like art. I think if we as a culture put more value on art there would be a lot more jobs. Even apps. Distribution is super green, all you have to do is upload. You're not chopping down trees or anything. The internet is great and green for distribution. Think of all that paper being saved and all of that oil not having to be burned. I figure you can do one piece of art and use that same file to put it on a T-shirt or a coffee mug or a poster or something. It's several things in one if you do it right. That's a revenue stream. And the more I make the more I make. There's no reason why a kid in Africa can't learn the same skills as an American and pull himself out of squaller thanks to the internet. We are on course for a new, unified world. These tools are for everybody. I'd be a dum ass if I didn't learn to use them.
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